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Seventy Times Seven

5/29/2011

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Today my heart is heavy.  If you have little strength for some of the harsher realities of life, stop reading now.

My Bible study leader, Don, brought up Charles Roberts and his actions at an Amish School in Pennsylvania in 2006.  As he discussed the path that young man took and the subsequent forgiveness and compassion the Amish expressed towards him and his family, I was overwhelmed with emotion.  Tears began to well in my eyes.  I did not realize anything was left but there is.

I've read some of the unforgiving comments about George Sodini. Forgiveness is very hard to extend to someone who commits such a heinous act.  Yet, it is the very thing our Lord Jesus Christ commands us to do, which was the intent of Don's mentioning the young Mr. Roberts and his tragic path.  The Amish forgave him and supported his family financially.  How many times are we to forgive those who do wrong?  Seventy times seven according to Jesus in Matthew 18:22.  I've heard pastors say this is not a literal number but illustrates an unlimited number of times.  I believe it is allegorical.

How many times do we suffer through the same injustices before we tire of them completely and get short or worse to make our antagonist, teaser, or pest stop?  Jesus Christ paid for all sins on the cross through spiritual death or separation from God the Father.  All sins includes the ones committed repeatedly over the course of our lives, all of our lives, from anger to xenophobia.  My finite mind cannot comprehend that but I would have to categorize that as an infinite number of forgivenesses.  Do I have that ability?  Not in my humanity.  I hope to have more grace in my spiritual walk with God.  Lord knows I've been presented with plenty of practice.  I appreciate those who have extended forgiveness to me through their grace.

I've had a lot of emotions about George's path over the last couple of years.  Some emotions are conflicting because I feel relief that he didn't murder me and guilt because he didn't murder me.  I felt those today as well as sadness and grief.  I didn't realize those emotions were still in my soul.  Perhaps had Don discussed Charles Roberts less I wouldn't have felt anything.  The longer he talked the more old memories stirred thus the emotions.

Some of Don's points made me want to comment but I didn't.  Some things I've read about George make me want to comment but I don't.

But, there is one point I would like to clear up about Tetelestai Church and George's brief banishment.  He was asked to not come to church at my request to the Deacon's.  George needed to cool off and I thought being banished from church for a time would help him understand how badly he had breached my boundaries.  It was never meant to be a permanent exile but a time long enough for him to rethink his actions and cool off.  After a few months of exile, George returned.

We never spoke again, though.  Because of George's actions, a friendship ended.  I hold George responsible for that because I had advised him many times, since 1999, to seek professional help, which he never sought.  He needed it.

Perhaps had I stopped attending church for a few months George would have pursued a different path.  We will never know.  If I had known how mentally disturbed George was and that continued church attendance would have helped him, I would have gladly stopped for awhile and gone elsewhere.  Ultimately, with my knowledge of George, I surmise neither would have changed his path.  We will never know.

I hold no animosity towards George in spite of my emotions and his treatment of me several years ago.  He was a tormented soul and his anguish was evident.  Being unforgiving towards him would be futile and wrong of me regardless of lingering emotions.  I've been forgiven of much through Christ's work on the cross.  I understand forgiveness.  Christ paid for my sins on the cross and he paid for George's sins on the cross.

Christ forgave and paid "seventy times seven."
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Asleep at the Camera

5/23/2011

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My brother has helped the technical crew at Riverside Baptist Church for a number of years.  They always need help so I volunteered a few years ago.

Recently, I dined with a friend on a Saturday night and had wine with dinner.  I am not a heavy drinker so I had one glass and gave one to my friend.  He loves wine!

The next morning I was on a camera at church during the 8A service.  My brother was directing.

As he began, he called for camera three to do something.  I sat and awaited instructions.  Again my brother called for camera three to do something.  I began to wonder what was wrong with camera three and continued to await instructions.  I began to think maybe I should do something since camera three was non compos mentis.  The third time my brother called for camera three to do something I was bending over to look at camera two to see what the problem was.  I then realized I was on camera three.  Holy Mackerel!

I keep all the tension settings on the camera movements completely off to ease panning the choir, the praise team, zooming in and out, etc.  I was laughing so hard the camera was shaking and my brother suddenly cut to camera three.

I believe that's the fastest I've ever straightened up in church!  I was off in la-la land because of the wine.

My brother was a prince about the whole thing and we laughed about it later.  No more wine on Saturday night, when I'm on camera.

It makes the pastor's A Team look bad.
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The Snap of the Net

5/20/2011

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The snap of a basketball net is one of the sounds I enjoy in life.  After I've lifted weights in the early morning hours, I often shoot hoops in the gym for a few minutes then head to the showers.  I love to hear that snap as often as I can produce it.  It means the ball is just kissing the net as it drops through.

My hometown is part of basketball country.  I've watched it from the first grade on.  Uncle JD would take me to games with him sometimes, which was always a treat.  Uncle JD watched those boys play throughout his life and he lived a long time.  He must've been the Florien Blackcats' biggest fan!  We talked about those Blackcats even when he was in the nursing home.  That's how avid a fan Uncle JD was.  He was a precious man!

Several years ago a maintenance hand's son challenged me to a pickup game at the Natrona Heights YMCA.  He was trying to get on the basketball team at his school, since he was heading into his freshman year.  He was taller than me by about an inch and heavier by about 50 lbs.  We'd been shooting baskets for awhile and chatting, while his parents lifted.  We decided to play to 10 points.

I didn't care who won.  In my book, it was a friendly pickup game with a kid.  I was glad he didn't mind playing with a woman about 25 years his senior.  Most boys don't want to be seen  with any adult let alone on a basketball court with one at a highly frequented gym.

He must've thought I was easy pickin's and would make short work of me.  He found I wasn't so easy and began to taunt me on the court.  He ratcheted up his game a little but that didn't have the desired effect either.  I still wasn't taking it seriously.  It was a game with a co-worker's son.  Why would I want to be too serious?  He was a kid and I am not a basketball player.

The boy ramped up his aggressiveness again, which surprised me some but didn't offend me.  Then, he took it to another level.  He was playing so rough I twisted my ankle.  It hurt but stubbornness set in and I was determined to make short work of him.  What began as a friendly game was serious.  He made no more points afterwards and I made just about every shot to reach 10 points quickly.

When I got home, the ankle was swollen and lightly bruised requiring ice baths for the next week and a half.

And the boy?  He never challenged me to another pickup game.  I guess he learned to not play with someone who enjoys the sound of the pop of the net.
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Admitting Mistakes

5/3/2011

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I like Dr. Robert Lustig of Sugar:  The Bitter Truth fame.  He's doing a wonderful PSA, Public Service Announcement, about sugar and its harmful effects in its refined state.  I like him for another reason regarding the way he handles mistakes.

In the Bitter Truth, he asks then answers what one does when they realize they've made a mistake.  His answer, "You admit the mistake then right the ship."  I applaud him for his frankness and willingness to admit mistakes.  Too few of us have that capacity.

For years I was told it was verboten to admit to making a mistake or saying that anyone else had made one.  You don't do it under any circumstances because it is a career ender.  Engineers to mid-level managers have said this.  I never subscribed to it because I make mistakes and sometimes often.  I've learned some of my greatest lessons from my mistakes.  I wouldn't miss those for anything.

Not admitting to mistakes has always been a puzzling position to me.  If you aren't admitting to mistakes, how do you know you're on the wrong path and need to change?  For example, if I cannot admit that my sugar habit is bad, harmful, making me fat, causing migraines, causing brain fog, etc., i.e., is a mistake to eat, why stop eating sugar or sugary foods?  There has to be a causation to produce action.  The causation is admission that eating sugar is unhealthy ergo a mistake.  The action:  stop eating sugar.

I've seen many instances where this philosophy should be applied but isn't.  If an individual, a group, or a company is making a mistake, admit the mistake and right the ship.

It isn't so bad and it makes you feel so much better.
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